Life is like a wheel.

Assalamualaikum Sahabati.

Today I feel like writting, walau only few sahabat yang akan membacanya but syukur dapat berbagi kebahagiaan. If mom know she maybe mad at me now for sharing life stories here. Anyway, I just wana share few moments happening around last september tho.

And how to start? hmm.. it was started off when I heard a sad news from my family in Jakarta, when my Auntie texted me and mom that my Grandfather was ill on sunday morning. And mom feels like going back home the soonest possible! So I decided to deposit a cash to my cash card, where unfortunately after I deposit some cash I thought I can use the card directly to book a ticket online but I was false. As I called Call centre, they explained that it takes 2 days to be able to use the cash that I deposited. Where I went home with disappointment. If only I could call them earlier, my mom probably be back in Jakarta on the same day or early monday morning.

So as time goes by, we decided to book the ticket by monday morning, it was one fine morning, I went to work as usual, and mom went to the bank to withraw some money and went to airasia to book the ticket. I decided to join after my work is done. Unfortunately, on the same morning I received another text by my aunt saying that "Mbah Meninggal" where my heart pound so quick and I was so nervous where tears started to fall. Then mom called asking  things about the ticket pricing. And I told her on the spot that her father just passed away and she was shocked and suddenly the environment was quite for a moment. I was so nervous that I should have informed her face to face rather than on the phone. Then I decided to take one day emergency leave to settle things up and send mom to the airport for an afternoon flight, 10th Sept 2012... 

To cut it short, it was 4 days till my birthday. Since early of the year, I got good news and come a time just exactly before my 24th birthday my grandfather passed away. I was so sad to be left alone with my brother at these time, but Allah have another plan. I accept it with open heart. And just be positive.. 

As days goes by, towards the end of September. On the 25th, at dawn, My cat died. Indescribable feeling at that time. Was wondering and keep on thinking it was a gloomy september, indeed! I dont feel it was my year... May beloved cat Mimit, the night before she died.. I was cleaning up the kitchen and she went out and I thought it would be ok to leave her outside cos usually nothing happen. So I was so stupid that I don't even care.. I never expect that this would happened. So during the dawn, I heard dogs barking around the house, at first I don't really care cos I was so sleepy that suddenly I woke up as I remember Mimit was outside without thinking further, I shoo the dogs away and I went out of the house taking with me my Car key to switch on the highlight, the weather I remember was raining cats and dogs. So I dare myself to go out and checked cos I was so worried when I called up Mimit's name but no respond I suddenly saw a small body lying just infront of the coconut tree, as I go near...Im speechless the body was motionless and I thought it was other cat, BUT No, it was Mimit! :'( I really feel sory for her... if not because of me letting her out that night, things will not happened! :'(

Well anyway, taking it positively again... I believed that Allah loves her more.  Was so sad... but no one to turn to, only my brother understand me how I felt.. he said..." it was a very sady month for me..." I said yes, indeed...but it's okay".

But I was so happy that on the same day, 25th September 2012 was my luckiest day too where I received a call from jpke informing me to dropby to their office to take a letter. I was curious, but was stupid that I dont even ask! Haiyaa!! All I can think, was I getting an offer for a scholarship? was I?? Was I?? was so anxious! So the next day straight from home I went to jpke to take the letter. Alhamdulillah, I was so thankful that they said I was given a scholarship to further my studies to degree... Alhamdulillahirabbilalamin......... Subhanallah, I was terribly indescribably happy with joy and butterflies in my stomach! Feels like wanted to screem! Once again, the officer in charge congratulate me! and I was really-really happy! Alhamdulillah..... :))))) The morning I received the letter, I texted mom that I got the scholarship! Subhanallah... Mom this is for you. And She's really happy... :)

Remebering my conversation with her just before she departed to Jakarta, I have a small fight with her and I was ssssoooooo sad, when I cried like a kid wanted a toys! Tersedu sedan.. (Overly sad) why?? 

Because of financial issues my mom suddenly said, 

"Nadiah, No need to further your studies cos we need money at the moment. Your studies is too expensive! It's better for you to work and save money first" ........and the conversation goes on... I cried terribly infront of her, but I don't speak a thing, except to keep on crying. I really wanted to further my studies.. I really amm..........!!! I know I'm angry and my mouth seperti bisu kelu. Whenever I remember this conversation and realising that I got this scholarship my tears wil definitely fall! :'( :'( :'(  

Dear friends, who would expect, initially she keep motivating me to further my study when suddenly she change her mind! (due to financial problem). Despite the rain, a rainbow came. Despite the sorrow & hardship, success just around the corner. Who would expect that right? I really am feel grateful & thankful now. Alhamdulillah..... 

Allah is great! Allah is the best planner... It's just us either to give up or to move on...

Till then, Je'taime beaucoup! Mwah! ;)

Raya 2012 Preparation!

Salam everyone. It was more than a month of preparing for Hari Raya (Syawal 2012). Been doing things properly, planned every single thing til the day came. Everything furnished! 

This was some of the House Faulty that I have to face before Raya came

Well, I should've taken picture of the actual "BEFORE" small-renovation done to my living room & kitchen but I was helpless at that time was so tired and very busy to take picture. And here it is the "AFTER" picture.

 I know it's not as gorgeous as what you may think, nevertheless - Home sweet Home!

And what makes me happy even more when everything is set-up, Food is packed, Green Packet been concealed and simply ready for Raya! (This time no last-minute)

Things done and bought for this renovation, 

1) Bought 2 sets of kitchen cabinet

2) 3 sets of wall paint (Purple for kitchen, Red for Living room & White (Outside)

3) New Cushion Set

Please be reminded, before that you can say I am wasting (Membazir), after for how many years we have been using the same thing over & over, the year 2012 is the year we need a lil bit of changes! We have been purchasing things earlier way too far before Raya came. This is to be taken into account is our Baju Raya, Yes... I have been planning what materials and colour to wear this coming raya as early as March and sending them to the boutique in April and it's done by end of May!

You know, year 2012 is just perfect! Alhamdulillah with the help of expert (i.e. My beloved Mommy) everything went well. 

One tips from her to share with you guys about how to plan your financial before raya is... prepare things as early as possible and purchase what you want to purchase one after another. For e.g. March's salary you buy Kain for Raya, April's salary you pay your tailor, May's salary you buy furniture (when needed), June's salary you purchase sofa (when needed), and the list goes on (when needed!)

 That's tips from Mom! I have encountered a lot of last minute examples whereby all of the above-mentioned specifically preparing Baju Raya only for 'a month' before raya (this is typical! common! in Brunei) and frankly speaking I hate it! Why? 1) Rushing, 2) No guarentee the tailor would be able to get it done on time! 3) Big possibility the tailor would sew our baju hantam-hantam as a result "imperfect" - & of course some may "COMPLAINT" (and definitely a BIG NO time to alter it!) True heh? So, think of it!

So, here it is, while people is busy doing things, I am busy relaxing... :) Mind my word, don't think of the harsh-wise! But think of the True-wise. (Mind my ENGLISH) 

P/s: I only have one baju Raya this year! Great for those who use their last year's baju raya & bad for them who've had more than one baju raya this year.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri people! :)

Till then,

Renungan bersama part II

 Assalamualaikum~

Renungan bersama:

kekadang orang yang kita tidak suka itulah yang terbaik untuk kita.. sentiasalah menjadi org yg pemaaf dan memaafkan..

jika kita pernah berbuat kesalahan..usahlah diungkit perkara yg lama.buatlah lembaran baru setiap hari untuk menjadi yg terbaik untuk smua org asalkan mencuba...

memang dulu dia pernah berbuat jahat kepada kita, dulu juga kita pernah berbuat jahat dibelakangnya..namun cubalah untuk berubah..kerana akhirnya kita tidak mengetahui apa yg kita jahati itu..dia sebenarnya lebih baik dripada kita...

AKHIR SEKALI... MENCUBALAH JADI TERBAIK namun jangan pernah menganggap diri baik sekali ~

 - Got it from someone's FB :) Jazakillah ukhti for sharing... 

Self-Motivation!

Do enjoy watching. 

Uplift yourself... For your own good!

All the very best of luck for your Life...

a little happiness!

Dear Friends, Assalamualaikum...

My brother's result was out today. Alhamdulillah he will be in Year 10 Next Year.. But some of his result drop a bit. Below was the comparison of his Mid year exam and End of Year exam!

Some goes up and some goes down. was a bit worried for his A.Maths... I know its a lil bit hard and its a tough subject anyways!

So this afternoon I went to his school for Parents & Teacher's Meet (On behalf of Mom). This was my 2nd time. And I took the opportunity to meet his teachers.. Times only permits me to see his Computer Studies, Maths & A.Maths, Chemistry & English Teachers!

Most of them commented Abizar is a quite person. Hardly ask questions even with his classmates. Only for some close friends he will speak! All of his teachers that I met give a good comment. Its only Abizar need more practise on certain questions/subject.

The most touchable comment was given by his Maths & A. Maths teacher where she told me personally that Abizar had shown his effort in achieving his target and Abizar has "prove me wrong". She wasnt expected that Abizar can get a high and improved result from the first term exam until the final. She said he has the potential and he is brilliant...

My brother indirectly taught me this: 

The more life goes tougher & harder, the more we actually should appreciate life. 

His teacher told me that he is a different student amongst all of his friends. He knows his background & that makes him serious in his studies. Indeed this is a big realisation for me... The time when I heard this from his teacher, I feel like tears wana falls down and its a bit deep for me.

Unbelievably saying that, what Abizar done is so true! I envy him much... He is only 3 months old when dad passed away. He have no love from a father but he has gone this far and makes his dad and even his family proud of him... The reason I said he indirectly taught me this was because despite his sadness and pressure background but he managed to study well. Tho some of his subject drop a lil from C to D or even D to E. But I believe he can do it much better in the future!

If we think this deeply, It's quite true and logic when I say.... Most of well families, sometime they dont appreciate life much that they tend to neglect or dont care much of their studies. But for those who came from a different background tend to appreciate life more especially in terms of studies, this is so because they know this is an opportunity for them... This makes me think so...

Another suprises was from his English teacher. He told me that in every classwork and exercises given, he is like any other ordinary student. But when it comes to exams, he always surprises me with his brilliant ideas especially his composition.. 

Alhamdulillah... I really thanks to Allah for giving us this little happiness! I really wish him to be a successful Man. Success in his life dunia and akhirat... Amiin Insyallah.. :)

Till then...

Renungan bersama...

Tak selalu yg menarik tu baik,
Tak selalu yg hitam tu kotor,
Tak selalu yg berckp tu berani,
Tak selalu yg diam tu pengecut atau penakut....

Cuma kadang perlu jaga hati & perasaan org lain....

Dilemma.

Assalamualaikum Wr Wb.

Tak tahulah mengapa hati dan fikiran bercelaru pada ketika ini. September is so soon! My new Semester Term will start v.soon! I was thinking of quitting my Rasamas job. Because I really wanted to focus on my study. Next term ill be taking up my Higher National certificate (Which also equivalent to International Advance Diploma).

If I were to quit, I need money to pay my school fees and exam fees. Studying under private college is not easy. paying monthly fees of $450/month and exam fees 1 subject = $100. If i take 3 subject ill have to pay $300. In addition to that, M.o.E fees is $50. Added together of $350/SEMESTER TERM. (AND $450 every month).

People dont know how difficult it is to improve my standard of living. Studying and working at the same time. I work at Rasamas just to be paid $100/month and doing my side business earning profit by $300-400 per month. All of my money goes for my education, my brother's education and my mother's expenses, loans, etc. Intending to save money every month seems impossible for me. I am still fortunate that I am currently working with RBTS which literally reduces the burden.

But the problem now is how am I going to decide either to quit rasamas or not. The problem is I wanted to focus doing my assignments as I decided to take 3 module next semester. If I am still working with Rasamas, I would rarely have time to do the assignment. Whereas at the same time, I need money to pay all those expenses! Even a hundred counts!

Ya Allah.... aku bingung.... :s kalau saja aku mampu.... Namun aku bersyukur kerana Engkau telah memberikan ku jalan untuk bekerja di dua tempat, berbisnes dan belajar pada masa yang sama.. Akulah penanggung keluarga akulah juga penentu masa hadapanku.

Biarlah org mau berkata apa pada diri ini, yang penting pekerjaanku dan rezki yang kuberikan buat keluarga adalah suatu yang halal... InsyAllah.. 

Sharing some happy moment, I have just finished learning basic french at Alliance Fracaise de Brunei. Money earned, is also fully utilised for learning additional language too.

My writting today is to open your eyes. Not by mean of showing off, Who am I to show you off? I did everything with my own effort, Mind you that. I earned money in a Halal way, Never in my intention to get it in a wrong(Haram) way. I still stand on my Principe, to work sincerely and honestly. I know to define what is good and what is not.

May Allah gives us Hidayah more... amiin InsyAllah.

Jazakaullah hu Khoir. salam Ramadhan everyone =)

Standing in her own shoes.

Assalamualaikum. Dear people,

This post may be the same with my previous post. "Being authentic". But its in a different theme.

Let me begin the awareness in my life journey as a start. Just this evening, my Chinese colleague again concern about me. Yes she is a very kind hearted and caring lady. She's like my soul sister. But we both have different point of views..

Just a simple matter arise, when she told me that she's currently busy with her audit work. And she tend to not so have time to chat with me in office. So, she knock my MSN in FB by asking how's my day and so forth. Then, she tend to express her feelings about being a mother to a 3 years old princess. She said that, now its been a month of sending her daughter to school, that she have to sleep early and wake up early in the morning just to prepare her daughter to school and as well as to cook for her.

I told her that, that is a usual thing a mother does. I told her that I've been in her shoes for 2 weeks when mom was away to Jakarta. That I have to be like a mother, well literally I am a mother for 2 weeks. I have to take care of him where I have to cook, doing all the house chores, take care of the car and every 'single' things. Besides my normal life of working and studying.

And she just commented that you guys are big enough to take care of yourself. Well, honestly saying, my brother is very dependent. Its hard for me to explain. In general, I did all. So, in just 2 weeks time i have learnt and feel how to be a mother. The tiredness is very... 'SUPER.' As a responsible sister, I have to take care of my brother well. The main important thing was his food. And I have to cook everyday(which indirectly enhances my cooking skills) hahaha :D

Not only that, there are several thing, i mean unwanted things happened at home where our pipe leaks. And I have no contact at all..Been asking for help from ustaz, but he's busy with his works. Been calling the plumber but no answer as it happened on sunday, shops closed at that time. I was like have no idea what to do. Not only that, on one fine morning...I was asking my brother to open the gas and ask him to boil water for morning b'fast but when I went to the kitchen to check, the gas was wrongly opened where there was fire on the pans instead of the water boiler. I was like terribly feared that it will turned bad. Especially to my house. But finally, i tried to relax and close the gas and try to put down the fire by using the handkerchief instead of pouring the water directly to the gas, I believe it wouldn't help. Ya Allah... I was like stunned with what had just happened. Allah still love us.. And when I asked my brother, he told me that he opened the gas for the water not the pan.. argghh.. I couldnt argue more, I dont wana fight w/him. So, I just keep it quite.

Its not easy living alone without my mother... I terribly scared after what had just happened. I just keep faith, keep on praying that everything will be in good and safe condition after mom return.

You cant say and judge me just by looking at me once. Look deeper and you'll know it. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikulnya... D Brunei ani, Ada keluarga macam nada keluarga... Kan minta tolong pun payah. People never understand me, Its not easy being half Bruneian and half Indonesian. People tend to hate mother more. They hate my hereditary. But they just dont know that my mother is not what they think all these while. Its totally the other way round.

Being honest with everyone in this world, my mother is very deep in her religion. Seorang yang tekun pada agamanya, tidak pernah meninggalkan solatnya. My father met her when my mom was working in Indonesia back 20 years then. My mom is not an amah, that a man could simply marry her just like that. Mom is an office worker in Indonesia, She was a secretary and a supervisor in a big book store in Indonesia. But people often misjudge her. And I dont understand and never want to understand jua why Bruneian is too choosy with Indonesian. I can say, Bruneian are very close minded! I dont mean all but for some yang nda pernah membuka hatinya untuk bisa menerima.

And that's why, I am here in this world to defend my mom!!!! Whoever in this world try to mess w/my mother. Mess with me FIRST! I used to hate my life, but this is what I have been given. I have to accept it with open heart. And I try to be deaf with all what people will say. I will prove to them that I can succeed tho I am half Indonesian. They doesn't know that Indonesian is not all a low class people. When you step your feet to JAKARTA, you will know there are lots of intellectual and rich people there. When I went back to JAKARTA last december, Its different than what Bruneian may perceive, you yourself will astonished if you see it w/your own eyes. Their houses(asset) is much bigger that the Bruneians. The word "WOW" will come out from your mouth, believe me..If disini, hanya kaya dtg dari hutang bukan dari saving. Rumah hutang, kereta hutang, kawin hutang, everything hutang. hmm

I have one Bruneian-Indonesian friend. He is a guy...degree graduated from German taking up politics. I used to express my feeling w/him about my life. And at that time I wasnt know that he is half Bru & Ind. Father, Indonesian and mom, Bruneian. After a while, he told me the truth. And it gives me the strength. Kita bukan kaum yang bisa dilemahkan..Kita juga boleh berjaya.. And Im glad to know him..Form there, I gain a courage. I dont make up a story and if you dont believe me, you cari namanya di M.O.E.

The first quote that applied to my life was "dont judge a book by its cover".

Maaf readers di luar sana, Please dont be offended with all my sayings.. I have the right to speak my own words. I am a human being like all of you guys. Ingat saja kita hidup di dunia hanya sementara, hanya akhirat yang kekal.. Oleh itu, kita harus sadar bahawa manusia di dunia ini sama rata, tiada yang lebih mahupun kurang, hanya saja kita diberikan kelebihan dan kekurangan. Segala kekurangan yang diberi itulah, Allah menyuruh kita berusaha merubahnya...

I am sorry to the very deep end of my heart, just to open your eyes, dunia ani bukan hanya ada Brunei.. Tapi bermacam2 negara... dan kita semua sama.......

Yang baik datang dari Allah, yang buruk sesungguhnya datang dari kita sendiri..

Being Authentic.

Dear Readers,

My awareness today was about Beauty. Im not sure what brought me into this topic. But anyway.. I was just keep on thinking about this matter since this morning. "Beauty" I often feel envy with every beautiful women. Since I was a kid, well ever since I step into secondary school. From then on, i know how to wear makeup..and every lil bit was taught by my environment. I did this because I want to look beautiful. Until one day that I have a prom night conducted by 6th form college. I was excitedly happy and joyous for the first time i was make up from a saloon. At that time, I doesn't know which saloon is the best.. well, the saloon that i went to was a cheap-cheap one. And the make up was err.. undescribable. aka terrible.. xp But anyhoos when i grew up, again i tend to go to much professional m.u.a. (Make up artist) at Essentual the mall. It is really my fav saloon. Went there twice, Jenny the M.U.A was really an expertise! It was really an astounding make up he did on me. It was when firstly done for my photoshoot at photo studio. Secondly was when I have an annual Toastmaster Dinner where I be an emcee of the night.

Well, beauty can be define in so many ways. There are some who are naturally beautiful without makeup. But some need makeup to be beautiful. Allah have created it fairly. They are beautiful so they dont need makeup. But not all girls have the beauty like any other gurls have, which make 'em need makeup to cheer their faces. So from my point of view, as a girl, I wanted everyone to know that as a women, a girl and a lady, we have to take care of our own beauty no matter what. As I grew older, as a secretary to the deputy chief executive, and literally as a lady I tend to think and realised that image is very important. And that's why it make me do so. Even working at Rasamas Restaurant my part time work, I am as a waitress and a cashier must take into account of my image. As I met customers. I have to maintain the image as a customer service.

This is therefore important for me to maintain my image. As i have mentioned earlier, some have their own natural beauty, like my colleague and my other girlfriends, not like me..I have to wear it every time because if not, my face will definitely be pale. Yeah, something that make me write this will probbably because of my Chinese colleague ivy, she always said to me that "why you have to wear makeup? You have your own beauty. So no need to wear... Later if your bf see you wear makeup, they will see you as a patung, not natural" and i replied her that I cant if w/o makeup i will be pale. Sometime i feel miserable. To wear or not to wear. And thats why I envy my girlfriend who have natural beauty.. I am so envy with them..

But to strengthen my perceptions. I will always try to be myself. Do you know that If we are married and have husband, we also need to take care of our image even at home. See how, important it is. I have heard and read so many complaint in a magazine that they feel bored with their wife because their wife do not maintain their image. See? Well what i meant is not only about make up but about their image at home. Not necessarily at home we dont have to be beautiful, but we Must!

Then again, it was about my friend who comment my other friend beautiful. Somehow I feel envy not jealous ok? envy.. :s But anyway, I used to think that she can be beautiful so do i and I even take so many steps to be like them. I used to be not authentic to myself. But this morning, I realised that I also do have my own. Why would I envy them much. Its ok, if nobody want to give me a compliment or even need to look at me for one or twice glance. I do not need that. I just need to be myself...be my authentic real self. I dont have the beauty like 'em. But I am an independent women. Not like the rest. I was given the power of independent by Allah to be a different women and a unique person. I believe in that. Some may have the physical beauty but there are also weaknesses. Well, Im seeking for the inner beauty instead.. Its ok I dont have the physical beauty like many others have. Allah is fair enough to give me good things. I dont need to be like them..

I am ME. I love myself... =)

Renungan renungkan lah...

Adakalanya kita perlu menangis agar kita tahu hidup ini bukan sekadar ketawa,
adakalanya kita perlu ketawa agar kita tahu mahalnya nilai airmata,
syukurlah kiranya ada yang menyakitimu,
kerana dia mengajarmu erti TABAH,
syukurlah kiranya ada yang tidak memperdulikan mu,
kerana dia mengajarmu BERDIKARI,
syukurlah jika ada yang menjatuhkanmu,
kerana dia menghebatkanmu untuk terus BANGUN LAGI,
syukurlah kiranya ada yang menyiksamu,
kerana dia mengajarmu erti KESABARAN & KETABAHAN.

Petikan kata-kata mutiara dari seorang sahabat dalam Facebook.

=')

JANGAN MENCARI TERLALU SEMPURNA (DR.FADILAH KAMSAH)

BUAT PEDOMAN BERSAMA.

Jika kamu memancing ikan.... Setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail, hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu.... Janganlah sesekali kamu LEPASKAN ia semula ke dalam air begitu saja.... Karena ia akan SAKIT oleh kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kailmu dan mungkin ia akan MENDERITA selagi ia masih hidup.

Begitulah juga ......... Setelah kamu memberi banyak PENGHARAPAN kepada seseorang... Setelah ia mulai MENYAYANGIMU hendaklah kamu MENJAGA hatinya.... Janganlah sesekali kamu meninggalkannya begitu saja.... Kerana dia akan TERLUKA oleh kenangan bersamamu dan mungkin TIDAK dapat MELUPAKAN segalanya selagi dia mengingatmu....

Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada, jangan terlalu mengharap pada takungannya dan janganlah menganggap ia begitu teguh.... cukuplah sekadar keperluanmu.... Apabila sekali ia retak.... tentu sukar untuk kamu menambalnya semula.... Akhirnya ia dibuang.... Sedangkan jika kamu cuba memperbaikinya mungkin ia masih dapat dipergunakan lagi....

Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang, TERIMALAH seadanya.... Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu istimewa.... Anggaplah dia manusia biasa. Apabila sekali dia melakukan KESILAPAN bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya.... akhirnya kamu KECEWA dan meninggalkannya. Sedangkan jika kamu MEMAAFKANNYA boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan TERUS hingga ke akhirnya....

Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi... yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu. Mengenyangkan. Berkhasiat. Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba mencari makanan yang lain.. Terlalu ingin mengejar kelezatan. Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya. Kamu akan menyesal.

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan..... yang pasti membawa KEBAIKAN kepada dirimu. MENYAYANGIMU... MENGASIHIMU... Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba MEMBANDINGKANNYA dengan yang lain. Terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan. Kelak, kamu akan KEHILANGANNYA apabila dia menjadi milik orang ain Kamu juga yang akan MENYESAL....

Renungan...

Madah Dari Hukama:

* Banyak diam tidak semestinya bodoh, banyak cakap tidak semestinya cerdik, kerana kecerdikan itu buah fikiran, orang cerdik yang pendiam lebih baik dari orang bodoh yang banyak cakap.

* Menasihati orang yang bersalah, tidak salah. Yang salah memikirkan kesalahan orang.

* Kalau orang menghina kita, bukan kita terhina, yang sebenarnya orang itu menghina dirinya sendiri.

Manusia tidak akan dapat mengalahkan syaitan kecuali dengan diam. Jalan yang terbaik ialah diam kalau kita tidak dapat bercakap ke arah perkara-perkara yang baik. Bicara yang baik adalah lambang hati yang baik dan bersih yang bergantung kepada kekuatan iman pada diri manusia.

When August End...

Assalam. I am happy but sad...Happy to see myself moving forward. But sad to leave all the beautiful memory passed by since January 2010...

There's a saying...

Life must be understood backwards; but... it must be lived forward.- Soren Kierkegaard

Wow, when i try to reflect and reminisce back. What a wonderful life I have had. I just don't realised it. Someone makes me think back my life I have. I know, this person is a hidayah from Allah that I should be very thankful of what have been given to me. Although I have gone through lots of the dark side, I felt I am so lucky to have that. Without it, without those challenges, I wouldn't be ME now. I will not be the way I am right now. There's so many blessing I have. Alhamdulillah... I hope this will leads my way up and always stays along the line. But if there's a distratctions along my ways, i guess I am ready to face it. This is all because experience in life has taught me to be mature, patient, calm in facing those challenges.

As of today, I am still alive, I still keep on breathing... Cus I know 'life' want the best in me. And I should appreciate every moment I have cus we are not living this life forever. Allah have created us to be the best human being. And that best human evolve and emerged from the way you wanted it to be. You created your life. So, make it wonderful. If you less motivated, find someone that can motivate you towards the best in you. Allah wants us to keep on trying.. never give up.

Do you know that...

“All of the top achievers are life-long learners... Looking for new skills, insights, and ideas. If they're not learning, they're not growing... not moving toward excellence.”

Being an 'excellence' is not only for our study or work but life. Achieving the best in life is what we want. Being the Best is BEST!~ hehe :D

All in all, whenever you demotivated just count your blessing. That should be fine.

Ok, this video really inspired me to keep moving forward, because I used to be in the son's position. I keep on blamming my father who made me appear in this earth and makes me suffer since I was a kid. I used to hate LIFE very much, cus life always treated me unfairly and makes my mom suffered. But this vid really rings the bell. I hope you do inspired as well... Always keep track of yourself, do not change from the line and keep believing yourself.

"The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place... and I don´t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently, if you let it. You, me or nobody, is gonna hit as hard as life. But ain't about how hard you hit... It's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward... how much you can take, and keep moving forward. That´s how winning is done. Now, if you know what you worth, go out and get what you worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits. And not pointing fingers saying: You ain´t what you wanna be because of him or her or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain´t you! You´re better than that!"

Wow, it's really are an inspiring video.... :)

I hope when SEPTEMBER comes, happiness will be showering me all the way... If I were to think of a fairy tale... I would like to dance my life out~ singing and living peacefully... Haha. I know its nonsense but just to maintain the feeling of joy in my heart. ;)

I really wana thank you all who have been part of my life and also consider you, strangers who read my blog. Because everything happens for a reason. This is the reason...I may be inspiring you and I am also inspired by you...

Talking about life, today my days started with a car almost hit my car at the main round-about gadong. But I did not lose my temper, I just smile. hehe WHy? Because its not my fault, he even horn me. And I just keep moving. He was the one who overtake my lane. Not Im taking him. So what for Im angry..?? haha in the end I hope he realised that he was the one who's wrong. Shame on you...

When I reached office, My day started with a smile to the reception as well as Mawee who's waiting for me to open the office door. hehe :D And they even realised that I'm smiling all the way.. "Ayu nampak hari nie" Umi said.. :) hehe I just smile and thanks her. I can just simply said to myself.. well, first thing is I am busy but stress free. :D

Today as well, I met my colleague whom I say is "Simple but Complicated" She was really happy to see me, I just dont know why...I feel the joy when I met her. I just listen to her story cus she just wen back from a shopping trip to KL few days back to accompany her twins for her wedding this december. Obviously, I have to shift my thought from -ve to +ve in order to accept people's weaknesses. They are my sisters and brothers in Islam..why should I hate 'em for those remeh-temeh reasons rite? hehe

One thing that makes me smile is when Lim aka Mr Kungfu Panda wanted to give me a CD of Bryan Adam, oh it's just happened when Donald, our cleaner clearing the dustbin and suddenly his hp rang. And the ringtone was Bryan Adam's song. I really bet, Lim will give me the CD tomorrow. Because he said so. lol.

"hey, that is Bryan Adam's Song... Donald can you sing Nadia that song?" He asked donald.
Donald just smile, laugh and left.
And when Hj mohammad came by to my office, Lim also asks him to sang...but Hj Mohammad just laugh and maybe thinking "what for?"
In the end, I speak up..."Haiyya you a..lim, you sja sing that song...simple what?"
And that makes him downloaded the song directly and he told me that he want to give me the song.. sigh. Reuben who was also there just laugh.. Kungfu Panda always done the unexpected things. isk..isk..

I really don't understand him, and I dont wana understand it anyway.. huhu :s last time mcD and now Bryan Adam? lol :p

Btw I received an invitation today from Amri for his wedding this 10th October. Ali gave me the invitation this morning.. I dont expect I will be invited. cus I only knew him for only few months in RBTS before he further study if not mistaken. Thanks for the invitation anyway... :) InsyAllah will come...

Alright, I guess that's all I wana say... See you September... :)

May the joy be with you guys as well...xoxo

Hakikat sebutir permata hiasan dunia...

Benarlah wanita itu ibarat permata. Kerana kecantikannya, dia dipandang oleh semua manusia.Kerana keindahannya, dia dipuja oleh sekalian insan. Tetapi kerana kehalusan peribadinya, dia dinilai oleh seseorang yang amat mengerti tentang hakikat sebenar seorang wanita.

Keindahan peribadinya ibarat kehalusan seni sebutir permata yang hanya mampu dinilai oleh seorang pakar yang benar-benar mengerti tentang keunikan rekabentuk sebutir permata di antara beribu-ribu permata yang terhampar.

Jadi,andai dirimu tercipta dengan penuh keindahan, bersyukurlah kerana itu adalah anugerah-Nya dan menjadi perhiasan kepada peribadi yang indah.Tiada gunanya rupa yang jelita tanpa pekerti yang mulia.

Andai dikau merasa dirimu tak seindah permata di sekelilingmu, tiada apa yang perlu dirisaukan.Mengapa tak perlu gusar?Itu semua ujian Tuhan untuk menguji keimananmu kepada-Nya serta menguji ketabahanmu pada ketentuan takdir-Nya.Sebenarnya, kehalusan peribadimu menjadi idaman setiap insan yang hanya mencari permata yang hakiki.

Dia tidak memandang pada keindahan luaran, tetapi dia hanya meneliti keindahan dalaman, kesempurnaan dari sudut agamanya,yang boleh membimbingnya ke arah jalan yang diredhai Tuhan.Insan seperti ini wujud setiap masa dan di mana-mana saja, cuma kuantitinya sahaja yang agak sedikit berbanding lelaki yang biasa.

Allah sendiri berfirman dalam Surah Ali ‘Imran(3:139) yang mana Allah menegaskan,

“Janganlah kamu merasa lemah dan jangan pula kamu bersedih hati,sedangkan kamu orang yang tinggi darjatnya jika kamu beriman,”(ayat ini asalnya ditujukan buat muslimin yang ingin berperang di jalan Allah).

Biarpun ayat ini ditujukan umumnya buat mukminin kerana penggunaan kalimah yang bersifat muzakkar, tetapi ayat ini boleh juga ditujukan kepada wanita kerana di dalam Al-Quran ayat yang ditujukan buat lelaki sebenarnya ditujukan umum buat seluruh manusia lelaki dan perempuan.Jadi, bolehlah ditafsirkan bahawa ayat ini merupakan pujukan lembut daripada Allah buat insan yang beriman yang merasa lemah dan berduka.

Ya, mungkin pada pandangan orang lain dirimu tak sehebat mana kerana keindahanmu tersimpan rapi di dalam diri,namun ianya terserlah pada pandangan insan yang benar-benar memahami peribadi sebenar wanita bergelar muslimah sejati.

Ingatlah,wanita yang baik untuk lelaki yang baik, dan lelaki yang baik untuk wanita yang baik pula (An-Nur,24:26).Semuanya sudah diatur rapi oleh Tuhan.Wanita yang beriman tidak akan sekali-kali dimiliki oleh lelaki yang buruk akhlaknya dan lelaki yang beriman pula tak akan ditemani oleh perempuan yang buruk tingkah lakunya.Ini kerana perkongsian hidup antara yang baik dengan yang buruk tak akan serasi sama sekali.

Buat para muslimin,carilah permaisuri hati yang sempurna agamanya kerana merekalah yang mampu membawa kita ke taman impian di sana nanti,iaitu raudhatul jannah di negeri abadi, insya-Allah.Andai kau mengira permaisurimu tak seindah yang kau impikan, tak mengapa.

Tak dinafikan, memang fitrah manusia menyukai keindahan rupa, tetapi adakalanya apa yang kita suka itu tak semestinya baik untuk kita dan mungkin apa yang kita tak suka itu amat baik untuk kita.Itu semua ketentuan Tuhan.

Tunggulah, kecantikan sebenarnya akan terserlah di akhirat nanti.Pada saat itu barulah kau merasa benar-benar bersyukur kerana mempunyai isteri sebaiknya.Kecantikan di dunia hanyalah kecantikan sementara tetapi di sanalah kediaman yang abadi.Itulah janji Tuhan.Sesungguhnya,Allah tak akan sama sekali memungkiri janji-Nya.

Kesimpulannya di sini, keindahan seorang wanita hanya terletak pada kesempurnaan agamanya.Keindahan fizikalnya hanyalah perhiasan luaran anugerah sementara daripada Tuhan yang mungkin boleh lenyap apabila tiba masanya.Itulah fitrah manusia,tiada apa yang kekal pada kita.Oleh itu, buat semua muslimah, moga artikel ini menjadi penawar kegusaran hatimu. ^-^

“Dinikahi seorang wanita itu kerana kecantikannya,keturunannya,kekayaannya dan agamanya. Maka, pilihlah dari segi agamanya, nescaya beruntunglah kedua tanganmu,”

artikeL dipetik dari http://halaqah.net/v10/index.php?page=228

"Wanita itu ibarat buah epal, epal yang tidak berkualiti amat mudah diperolehi kerana ia berguguran ditanah..Tetapi epal yang tidak mampu dibeli berada dipuncak, susah nak dipetik, susah nak digapai..Kadang-kadang epal itu risau, kenapalah diriku belum dipetik?...Lantas ia merendahkan martabatnya dan menggugurkan diri menyembah tanah, sedangkan ia sebenarnya telah ﷲﺍ jadikan begitu" (QS al-'Asr [103]:1-3)"