.....and it's finally out. I've managed to get 1B and 2 Fail. it is when we should expect the unexpected. And the time when P.A texted me that the result was out. My hand was shaking...and I just went on to my deskstop and without wasting my time I open my IVC and check my result. AND it turns out to be unexpected result. I was really hoping for my PQM to b at least C my POA to be F. But my POA turns out to be a hope that I used to have during my economics time where i hope for little luck in this subject and it was turn out to be out of the blue.. Anyhoos, tho I am a bit sad for the 2 subjects, I am happy for some reason. At least Ive got a 'B' for accounting.
More or less, morale of the story... Do not over expect a particular thing but do not least expect either. As you will in the end realised that if you put too much expectation on a particular matter in the end you suffer a loss! Cus I still remember when I am too much concentrated on my PoA even more than a week before the finals exam. Everyday accounting. At work I will ask Anoy my ex colleague about accounting and even at college I ask Alif for accounting. Not even that, I've attended extra-class with my lecturer just for the sake of PoA... i put too much effort in it! sigh oh well... what matters now I should balance it... its a lesson learnt. =)
And I would also like to congratulate to my lovely sweet duckling :) Congratulation on your outsatanding result. I pray for your success and may happiness shower your life more and more. Well, deep in my heart I wanted to beat and smack you down... But I am not sure if I ever could smack you cus I dont have the strength and I just cant do it cus I love you..hehe And well you are strong anyway. haha I know I am talking nonsense! But still it was balance! We still got 3 B's on the same subject... haha *rasa2han inda mau alah* hehe
Wow, life... life... life... I wish to have a healthy and wonderful life... I want to feel like this forever... I thank you all once again for the support given! I love you all deep from my heart and thanks for being part of my lovely beautiful life.
Today, tho I am a bit disappointed and down but people come and go to my office brings and left me with lots of laughter and smile... I laugh out loud with them today. simply loving my every moments... All in all, I am now getting my motivation back to do my assignments and school works done.. I believe that one happiness day of graduation will come to me.
I have sent my letter of advance leave to rasamas to apply for leave for the month of November and December. Alhamdulillah...I know now I have the chance to concentrate on doing my assignments.. ^^,
Wow!! Due date for 1st DRAFT Assignment is in 2 weeks time...And its gona be another 6000 words. A gentle reminder for P.A and A.P. due date is coming so soon... we have to do it!~~ Chaiyo-Chaiyo!! No wasting time.. ^_^
We were walking, shivering in the cold wind. Yet your company was warm. Every words exchanged with you, keeps a fire burning inside of me. You fuel me.
We walked. Side by side.Occasionally we bumped into each other out of playfulness. It was nice. I’m truly myself when I’m around you.
It was very cold, who knew the wind would blow so hard that night.
And then, our hands met.
I took hold of your hand. They were small, nevertheless, warm.
Our fingers interlock. That bind, so strong. I don’t ever want to let your hand go. You squeezed lightly. I squeezed back. Suddenly, the cold weather isn't so cold anymore.
Hand in hand we walked around aimlessly. But with your hand in mine, we’re not lost. We had nowhere to got, yet, we are going somewhere. On an adventure? Perhaps. Every moment with you feels like an adventure.
Your hand in mine. My hand……..in yours. We looked into each other’s eyes. And smiled.
Begitulah lumrah hidup... Kadang kita di atas dan kadang pula kita berada dibawah... Tiga tahun yang lalu, hidupku sama seperti ini... ditinggal pergi begitu saja, tahun seterusnya seperti itu juga. Setelah itu, jika difikirkan tentang keadaan yang pernah menimpa diri ini. Tiada cinta dan harapan yang bisa membuatkan ku jatuh lagi...namun begitu, tidak disangka cinta itu hadir sekali lagi. Hadir untuk merobek hati ku sekali lagi. Mengikut kata hatiku yg kejam...memang semua lelaki sama. Suka mempermainkan perasaan wanita. Sudah menjadi lumrah alam, begitu kejadiaannya. Namun jauh disudut hati dan perasaanku aku mengasihani mereka ini. Adakah kerana kasihan itu membuat hidup ku sendiri tak tentu arah?
Ceritera ku ini adalah umpama novel kisah cinta yang sukar dimengerti. Boleh dikata seperti mengapai bintang dilangit. Kita menyintainya dan mengaharapnya sepenuh hati, kita sangat tertarik dengan keindahanya, namun begitu, sayangnya kita hanya tergapai-gapai ingin memeggang bintang itu. Kita mengharapnya berada disisi namun itu semua hanya mimpi indah yang tak bisa menjadi kenyataan...
Hati pernah berkata aku tak mau bercinta lagi...aku mau teruskan perjuanganku. Kejayaan sepenuhnya belum ku kecapi. Aku berharap suatu hari nanti pasti ada lagi yang terbaik...
I Know I have been missing since Raya came. As alif have said Im doing things hangat-hangat t*** ayam.. huhu :) I know right..? It's just that my time is currently very limited not as before. There is few things I committed to right now so, Im sory blog I have been abandoning you. But no worries. Will keep myself updated from time to time. Please dont laugh when I said I have prepared long list what I will do in my blog... Its all abt happiness that Ive gone through in just a short while.. Just need patience and patient.. lol :p anyhoos... just wait probbably by tomorrow i will updates...
anyway... Selamat Hari Raya guys... I love you. xoxo
Assalam. I am happy but sad...Happy to see myself moving forward. But sad to leave all the beautiful memory passed by since January 2010...
There's a saying...
Life must be understood backwards; but... it must be lived forward.- Soren Kierkegaard
Wow, when i try to reflect and reminisce back. What a wonderful life I have had. I just don't realised it. Someone makes me think back my life I have. I know, this person is a hidayah from Allah that I should be very thankful of what have been given to me. Although I have gone through lots of the dark side, I felt I am so lucky to have that. Without it, without those challenges, I wouldn't be ME now. I will not be the way I am right now. There's so many blessing I have. Alhamdulillah... I hope this will leads my way up and always stays along the line. But if there's a distratctions along my ways, i guess I am ready to face it. This is all because experience in life has taught me to be mature, patient, calm in facing those challenges.
As of today, I am still alive, I still keep on breathing... Cus I know 'life' want the best in me. And I should appreciate every moment I have cus we are not living this life forever. Allah have created us to be the best human being. And that best human evolve and emerged from the way you wanted it to be. You created your life. So, make it wonderful. If you less motivated, find someone that can motivate you towards the best in you. Allah wants us to keep on trying.. never give up.
Being an 'excellence' is not only for our study or work but life. Achieving the best in life is what we want. Being the Best is BEST!~ hehe :D
All in all, whenever you demotivated just count your blessing. That should be fine.
Ok, this video really inspired me to keep moving forward, because I used to be in the son's position. I keep on blamming my father who made me appear in this earth and makes me suffer since I was a kid. I used to hate LIFE very much, cus life always treated me unfairly and makes my mom suffered. But this vid really rings the bell. I hope you do inspired as well... Always keep track of yourself, do not change from the line and keep believing yourself.
"The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place... and I don´t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently, if you let it. You, me or nobody, is gonna hit as hard as life. But ain't about how hard you hit... It's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward... how much you can take, and keep moving forward. That´s how winning is done. Now, if you know what you worth, go out and get what you worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits. And not pointing fingers saying: You ain´t what you wanna be because of him or her or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain´t you! You´re better than that!"
Wow, it's really are an inspiring video.... :)
I hope when SEPTEMBER comes, happiness will be showering me all the way... If I were to think of a fairy tale... I would like to dance my life out~ singing and living peacefully... Haha. I know its nonsense but just to maintain the feeling of joy in my heart. ;)
I really wana thank you all who have been part of my life and also consider you, strangers who read my blog. Because everything happens for a reason. This is the reason...I may be inspiring you and I am also inspired by you...
Talking about life, today my days started with a car almost hit my car at the main round-about gadong. But I did not lose my temper, I just smile. hehe WHy? Because its not my fault, he even horn me. And I just keep moving. He was the one who overtake my lane. Not Im taking him. So what for Im angry..?? haha in the end I hope he realised that he was the one who's wrong. Shame on you...
When I reached office, My day started with a smile to the reception as well as Mawee who's waiting for me to open the office door. hehe :D And they even realised that I'm smiling all the way.. "Ayu nampak hari nie" Umi said.. :) hehe I just smile and thanks her. I can just simply said to myself.. well, first thing is I am busy but stress free. :D
Today as well, I met my colleague whom I say is "Simple but Complicated" She was really happy to see me, I just dont know why...I feel the joy when I met her. I just listen to her story cus she just wen back from a shopping trip to KL few days back to accompany her twins for her wedding this december. Obviously, I have to shift my thought from -ve to +ve in order to accept people's weaknesses. They are my sisters and brothers in Islam..why should I hate 'em for those remeh-temeh reasons rite? hehe
One thing that makes me smile is when Lim aka Mr Kungfu Panda wanted to give me a CD of Bryan Adam, oh it's just happened when Donald, our cleaner clearing the dustbin and suddenly his hp rang. And the ringtone was Bryan Adam's song. I really bet, Lim will give me the CD tomorrow. Because he said so. lol.
"hey, that is Bryan Adam's Song... Donald can you sing Nadia that song?" He asked donald. Donald just smile, laugh and left. And when Hj mohammad came by to my office, Lim also asks him to sang...but Hj Mohammad just laugh and maybe thinking "what for?" In the end, I speak up..."Haiyya you a..lim, you sja sing that song...simple what?" And that makes him downloaded the song directly and he told me that he want to give me the song.. sigh. Reuben who was also there just laugh.. Kungfu Panda always done the unexpected things. isk..isk..
I really don't understand him, and I dont wana understand it anyway.. huhu :s last time mcD and now Bryan Adam? lol :p
Btw I received an invitation today from Amri for his wedding this 10th October. Ali gave me the invitation this morning.. I dont expect I will be invited. cus I only knew him for only few months in RBTS before he further study if not mistaken. Thanks for the invitation anyway... :) InsyAllah will come...
Alright, I guess that's all I wana say... See you September... :)
Au... Semangat sudah... Today, my day was quite hectic than usual. I go up and down to 5th and 6th floor several times. Well, I did it everyday tho. It seems that this fasting month is not like fasting. Often I wonder that how can people cannot stand to fast? Do you know during my second semester that almost every week I fast (sorry a...dont misunderstood me...not everyday) I only break my fast eating biscuits that I bought in Hua Ho and a bottle of water..And it happened to be that day is a normal working day. And I even have class throughout the night. Can you ever imagine how weak I am at that time? My point here is that, how could people who only have gastic doesnt want to fast? or even so there is also unreasonable reason heard as such "nda tahan lapar ku" Astaghfirullahalazimmm.. inda masuk di akal. And one more thing do you know that I also do have gastric since I was a KID? Kid man?? kid~~ and i kid you not!! until I grown up..
Mom once told me that, you have to fast in order to reduce your sickness (I.e. Gastric) If you fast it will slowly dissapear.. and she keep on mumbling to me until now... AND GUESS What? It happened to be real. After a while I did fast and the gastric healed. See? Do not pamper your sickness or else it will get worse. Cut my tongue if you dont believe me.. All of Grown up Bruneian who does not fast is too childish. Their mind is too short. They never think of the sins they have made. And they neither think on how to re-pay for it as well. isk2... dosa2...
So anyway, today as i said it was quite hectic, and luckily the meeting was not postponed anymore. But one thing that I hate during the meeting is that not that I dont want to get involve in it. Its just that I have to implement all the things discussed.. Having my say in a meeting is the best part. But when I have to do the research and implement it is the hard way. Soo many things to be think of. But positively thingking, I am lucky than the rest. Cus I have the experience but not you.. :) neither loss do i get..
I went home around 2.45pm today and I went straight away to school to pay my August school fees. You know every 25th of each end of month is always my school fees day as well other than my pay day!. sigh. Anyway, I met my lecturers there, Miss Ainun was there too. Just hanging around with her best buddies.. hehe :D as usual. So when I asked, when is my next semester starts? They said on the 13th September 2010. And Biah informed me that my next course will be Marketing, Accounting 1 and Management 1. I know three of these, are the toughest subjects, like the incredible hulk. :p huhu. But its all depends on my result later on. As for the time being, while waiting for it, we continue to study the subject mentioned. Ya Allah... INSYALLAH... :) Hope everything goes well as planned. Amiinn...
In spite of that, Its a HARI RAYA Day... wow, it will be cool isn't it?, schooling during hari raya. I bet..all the gurls will be wearing the most beautiful Baju kurong "Malay Pageant" and the guys must be handsome with baju cara melayu "Malay Leonardo d Caprio".. hmm~ hahaha :D plus lots and lots of cakes and biscuits pleaasssee. kekeke. and tapak kuda not to be forgotten' haha :D This year must be an amazing raya year. Dont you think Prince?? aha.. *winks*
This evening, Ive just went shopping alone, by myself...just to buy some grocery and paying my mobile phone bill. Ok everything settled.... I just can't wait to meet my super girlfriends :) I miss them a lot. I miss all the laughter together, i miss all the karaoke-ing together, I miss the bowling together, I miss the beach-ing together... Ever since MD, we became more closer and closer. They are all my PS 3 mates.. I still remember, it happened when our PS 3 was in the morning and we ate POP-MEE together~ aha.. you bet it right... together again.. haha :D But now... hmm.. every each of us was separated..we have our own life. Some went overseas, some UBDs, ITBs, MTSSR, and even working. The most happiest thing is whenever Ramadhan Comes, then the 'super bu ajah's gurl' comes together again...:)
MD Moments... :')
Buatmu yang dikasihi...Dan buat diriku yang dirindui...Terima Kasih atas segalanya... :')
"Kadang-kadang Allah sembunyikan matahari, DIA datangkan petir dan kilat. Kita menangis dan tertanya-tanya ke mana hilangnya matahari, rupa-rupanya Allah hendak memberi kita pelangi"
Today, i went to Gadong for Sungkai with my classmates and watched movies together. This is my first outing with my college mates after 8 months of knowing each other. All I can say, I am happy with it. Tho I feel the time was too limited. I wish to spend the whole day with P.A. *winks* opppss! Anyway, I enjoyed today's outing. I often wonder, how to be a proactive lady so that people will never get bored with me. haha :D any suggestions ? huuhuu.
One thing that I adored today was the movie itself was quite interesting. Its action, love, as well as comedy movie. I think I want to watch a comedy of Pua Chu Kang Movie haha. Cus I simply wana laugh out with the world. huhu :p The scene that attracted me in the "city under seige" was when angel mentioned that... love is when you are care and miss each other.. and so so..(I forget the wordings)to the bad character of Chu, (the monster :p). Im touch by it. Overall its a good action movie.. I don't complain a... ^.^ I think one happy moment as well is when the song of Cinta Kita played when i was hangin' around at Jaya, to waste my beloved time. :)
Allright Love, see you again. xoxo
I feel I dont wanna go home....cus something stuck in heart at the moment. School will be coming very soon. The time will become too limited and I wish to spend my time with P.A just a day together...
Dearest, Assalamualaikum... Wah today is a very tiring day! Im so sleepy.. And its raining?? The weather was quite cold and mellow... *winks to P.A* Today, I had training from 9 till 11 am. And it was about our new process for staff appraisal. *Kroohh* My eyes was sleepy n probably will gonna sleep. haha :p The things that I learnt in the training was almost the same that I learnt in my Management and Accounting Subject. Which I kindda clear and understand the terms given. Well, nda jua sia2 study Business Admin ani..sesuai dgn my present work.
So at 11.30 tadi I went to post office to take my parcel that just arrived on Monday. Its my Raya Shoes. hehe. I bought it from ebay. It was kindda cute. Im loving it. Hmm, but my Baju Raya is not yet siap. I did not send it too the seamstress bcos I tot mum could done it for me. My mom can be considered one actually. She can sew. That's why.. It seems that, my baju nda siap, and pakai baju lama th tu..sigh. Mom is quite busy nowadays. And talking about raya, my raya this time is very simple. hmm..but hopefully it will be beautiful and memorable. InsyAllah.. :) I ordered kueh-mueh n cakes dh from my colleguesss. huhu banyak sss ah? They approaches me to order, what can I say more...terima je lah.. tapi belum lh banyak..sikit2 dulu.. Nanti lagi bali..
If raya comes I should be very happy though. But this few years It wouldnt be happy cus of my schooling. All the money goes to school.. and when raya comes, so much expenses to spend. now...im *headache* oh how i wish my salary goes up now! My mom was waiting for it..I should be receiving my new salary this few months ago but due to this new procedure for staff performance appraisal, it had been postponed. Ohh, betapa bersabar nya aku buat masani.. :') If I were to have the new promoted salary now, life would be easier.. but all in all Twakkal je lah.. Mungkin Allah menginginkan yng lebih baik...siapa yg tau kn.. :)
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