It's Time to.....

Fly Off...

To the land of Jakarta...

See you soon...

I Love you & Miss you guys.....=')

Kittens.............

Please Im sorry... I just can't help to fall in love with kittens. I need one. My birthday wishlist... :s oh my oh my... how i wish i can only not stare to those kittens but touch them and love them.. aww... soooo cuteee. Im sorry that I have to steal this picture again from facebook. Im sorry cos I love them..........

How adorable.. so adorable.... :'s

Dear All, tomorrow is my last day I am in Brunei before going for vacation. Its been a very long2 time I havent go back to Jakarta. So this is it. This is the time... Semoga perjalanan kami lancar aminnn.... InsyAllah... =)

Love and hugs,

sad mode 'on'.

Life is hard. Today was terribly a bad day. As if the world turns upside down. I Was so down. And losing the hope. Today, Im fasting for Hari Asyura. But there was so many thing that slap me on my face.

Can I just pretend to be happy?

Dilema Cinta Dua Hati.

Salam Cinta... Salam Wahai Dunia... Salam Buat Semua...

Today, a calm bright sunny day. It was a coincidence last night that I saw a Afgan's new song of "CInta Dua Hati" OST Dilema Cinta Dua Hati. Sinopsis ceritanya...

Berawal dari kisah Jane (Olivia lubis Jensen) yang sedang berjuang melawan kanker pankreas tetapi tetap memiliki obsesi besar agar bisa mencintai dan dicintai oleh penyanyi idolanya, Alfa (Afgansyahreza). Lewat campur tangan kakeknya, Bhakti Hassan (Deddy Mizwar), yang seorang konglomerat, Jane akhirnya bisa masuk dalam kehidupan Alfa. Hanya saja Alfa telah memiliki kekasih yang bernama Laras (Tika Putri).

Trailer "Dilema Cinta Dua Hati"

Entah dari sudut apa yang membuatku amat tersentuh oleh lagu dan cerita nya... Personally saying, this story tells alot of my personal Love story. Im so touched by it where Alfa (Afgan) was firstly in love with Laras (Tika Putri) and suddenly came Jane (Olivia) in their Life.

On one side, I believe that I am at Laras position where she let Alfa love Jane because she saw a love on jane's eyes for Alfa. And coincidentally Jane is sick suffer from cancer. Which makes Laras try to be "Ikhlas" Although from the beginning she knows the risk of loving Alfa.

But the other side, I am also in Jane's side where Jane was the second love of Alfa. And I knew that Alfa is also loving Jane in return. THat is the part where I am touched by it. Looking at Alfa who loves both of them so much makes me like crying so much.

For Prince Adrian. If you ever saw My writtings today...Please do take care of her very much... I dont deserve this happiness, She deserve more than I do.

VIDEO CLIP "CINTA DUA HATI" - AFGAN

Hayati cerita nie... :'\ :'| :')

Aku Ikhlas meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu,

Simah's Solemnisation...

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU

SIMAH & KHAIROL

*Picture courtesy of Meinz Jurugambar*

Bahagianya ku lihat simah bahagia... Semoga kekal hingga ke anak cucu Simah...

Smoga persahabatan kita kekal abadi jua...

I miss the moment of MD with you especially during PS 3 at dining hall with dyah, ezan, munie, far, shidah, tiqah... and all... i miss the moments. And now you are married already... :') how fast times flew. Happy Always Simah.... =')

Serene.

I am in need of this calmness...

Im sorry I steal this pix from my Fren's fb heehe

Can I request to go to Loughborough? haha to meet the swan there. huhu.. So loving the beautiful place. I wana go to somewhere beautiful..... and live there. :')

Love,

monotonous. peanut butter. cheezy milk. soya sauce!

Lol. Im lacking of title actually. arghh...so bored and lonely. i am now. Shouldn't my life is full of butterfly? Anyway, I decided to write something tonite, becos i feel i wanna write.

Today, hmm... i really have no mood to do things. indescribable feeling i have. But lucky thing that I made my boss happy. she even text me that she's happy and give me a small reward. I was wondering...what did i do? I was only meeting her expectation that's all. What she want, I try my best to do n complete it. No complain. Well, maybe thats the reward for patient. sigh. I was again reflecting my life back. Don't you think my life is the other way round? Aren't me supposed to be happy to myself? Instead, I make people happy? I know rite there's a saying, you make people happy first than you get yours. You give others first than you'll received more. Was like....ouww well... lets must be patient again.

Kita buat orang bahagia, tapi diri kita merana? Today, really... my mood turns down.. I feel everything changes. Why life always treat me unfairly~ I want to cry but i can't. i want to run but I can't. I want to kill myself but ofc ourse definitely im still sane ok. hmm...

Few days back we had our RBTS summer camp. It was a success for the committee and of course RBTS. I guess people are having fun among themselves.. The married bring their family and spouses, The engaged bring their fiancee, The couples bring their own partner. And for me who are single, I bring myself. Mum n Abi don't wana join in. And again I'm alone.

Tho it was a success, at one point, some of Rbts-ians were having food poisoning,including myself. The day when there's a public holiday which is on tuesday. I had a teribble stomach ache. But I am yet to go to the toilet. But when wednesday came, it turns out to be diarrhea. Today, it was recovering. Some of my colleagues are taking MC. "Lucky them". huhu. Wow for me it was like a disaster for rbts when the people get sick almost everyone. haha Cali plg rasaku smua urg beria2.. haha :D anyway...i cant blame the committee. maybe the catterer didnt make the food properly. Only ALLAH's know.

Last sunday evening, I've watch movie with Ali and afy plus his brothers. On my way there, I was thinking isnt it good we watch movie with our love ones. aiya~ I know I shouldn't think about it tho. but it was suddenly there. The feeling. Coincidently lagi my ticket labih dua. haiyaa~ susah lor ini macam..

Anyways... Exam was almost over. Last paper gona be this saturday. ANd Im still stuck with my fb and blog! huuu~~ what happened to nadia???? I did my best. Quite dissapointed when my boss asked me how's my exam. Cus I answered it was quite hard. And she said.. "nda kan smua payah?" well, only Allah knows. Sabar nad... I feel tercabar jua lah dgn ckpnya atuh..hmm.

Umph. last monday i went to Khai's house at Telanai. Her daddy's birthday. Happy Birthday Uncle Malik!!

Uncle Malik in the Middle with grey shirt with yayah's UBD mates, a cousin n guitars.

Talking about my best friends now, I have just realised one thing. Tho Imma quite person (I know Im not with certain) haha :D okay.. i mean my point is.. Now that I realised that Im close with their families as well.. Let see..Munirah, I think Im closed with the entire family. Well, we always be together before..thats the reason. Khairiah. also the entire fams, as well as tiqah, dyah, ezan n rosdiah. Syami not really that close... maybe the connection with them get me more closer with them. well, knowing them is my pleasure. Kalau dikata I am a guy mengkali, boleh jadi menantu kali eh. Some of them we know them well, including dad and momnya. ohh well, so lucky they are gurls haha :D

Talking nonsense lagi c adriana puteri ani. Nada orang sudi dgr cerita, i cerita with blog saja lah... hee

Life, i will get you busy so that you will not feel lonely and boring after this examination is over. i promise... hmm so sad!!!!! i feel downn....

Love,

Fortunate stroke of Serendipity....

Salam...

"One step at a time....."

Oww aww~ singing this song.... lalala~ We live and we learn to take one step at a time... And that's how life is.. Rockin my own world in the middle of the night. huhu. Im finishing my mind maping soon. Its almost done. I dont care anymorrreee~~~~ I want to live my life to the fullest!!! Arghhh~~~ I want to enjoy and enjoy my short period of Youngster! Besides, I need to pursue my dreams.

Anyways, Since my last post... I have been missing something. I mean posting something!. Okay lets Start~ Last wednesday i went for Badminton-ing with my colleagues. and I really had a teribble muscle ache. I played with all my heart and energy. Its been a while I left it out.

Last weekend, didnt do much thing except doing some revision for exam and facebook-ing.. Im sorry. Facebook no more soon.. I promise! huhu :p I can't help to fall in love with fb... *eyes drools* hhuuhuu :p anyways I know my updates this time is nothing! But I have something special and good news to share.

It was when my brother get a chance to received an outstanding academical performance awards in year 9 Aspirasi for the year 2010. Congratulation ABI.... Thanks for making your parents proud of you. I guess HJL's son's the first and the last is a brilliant child. After knowing my big bro was the Acting CEO of one of the govt agency in MOF and my lil bro emerging in his academic performance. I know Allah is Fair though sometimes life says not. It's all Allah's will... All I have to do is just pray that more and more good things happened.

I was deliberately happy and the fortunate stroke of serendipity just drop by to mum's heart today. Mungkin inilah kebahagiaan ibuku setelah lama menderita... Alhamdulillah syukur kepada Allah yang maha berkuasa di atas segala2nya... Jazakumullah Hairon Kathira... Segala sesuatu yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya. Walau Abi didnt managed to get a chance to be promoted to Express class. But still he BEAT his friends who get the express class by getting 1st place in academic performance among the rest of his year 9 friends specifically the no.2 & 3 ers... I know its weird and not fair for us, as his friends only managed to get 70+ above while Abi get all 80+ "except" Maths 65. If only 5 marks was given....he deserved to get express. Sigh. Sabar saja lah sayang~ You have other chances.... Im soo sad cus I know he is so depressed... i can feel it. During his PRS exam, he was dreaming to get chance to enter Maktab Sains, unfortunately he only get 4a 1b. Almost!~ argh.. almostt!! This time round he almost get express!! Almost??? hmm.... Allah knows better... I know. THere must be something best for him one day!. InsyAllah...

Well, I asked him... "what do you want?" I'll give you. Unexpectedly he only smile. Smile? what can I give you if you only give me smile dear? huhu And suddenly mum said... Laptop. "Ia mau laptop tu"... "Mana ada" abi said. He pretending... ohh, this kid only love to smile since he was a baby... mum told me a story yesterday... "Abi atu darinya lahir smpai sekarang...senyum saja pandainya... "Penghibur hati mama eh..." (Sayu plg hatiku mendgr cerita mama tu) "Nda tau nya...sudah basar menyanangkan hati mama..." mum said (My heart was crying cus I know what mum trying to say...and what it really means...) I have nothing to say... Alhamdulillah...... =')

Hari ani jua result management 1 P.Test and Assignment keluar. For P.A information jua... your result was almost the same w/me I beat you by 2 marks for assignment. 91 and 93. Test sama 31. hehe. Alhamdulillah nda jua teruk sangat, Average. Marketing pun Alhamdulillah. Awaiting Accounting saja lagi. Aritu pun miss bagitau mock test only 3 ppl pass including me. Alhamdulillah again... =) Now... exam saja lagi.... the war will begin soon......

Overall..... I just pray more and more good things happen.... Amiiinnnn~

Allah maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang.... maha adil lagi bijaksana.....

Allah pasti memberikan pelangi.... pasti....

Love,

Apa-apa saja!

Salam

Alhamdulillah I feel relieved after doing something. Was so weak today, no mood at all... bekurung dibilik saja nda keluar2. berperap dlam bilik and depan laptop atu saja yang di buat. Baik jua assignment sdh antar. Alhamdulillah hari isnin menunggu miss princess saja lagi. Katanya ia emergency leave smpai saturday, and she couldnt go to school. It's ok I said to ms princess in my msg. But I remind her "but not to deduct our marks becos of late submission" hehe did i just say that to miss? sory miss nda sengaja, tekiding-tekiding saja.

Ok malam ani I will continue reading my novel titled "Izinkan ku bahagia" by Leya Myra. I bought this masa jalan2 with amy last few days di giant while waiting for amy window shopping to the nearby shop. All of sudden titlenya menarik perhatian ku.. Bila dibaca kisahnya almost the same with me. And that may be the reason why. Nda mau cerita about it here lah.. kalau mau beli n baca sendiri.. hehe Tapi Peran watak utamanya kelurusan "Nadya" jua but with 'Y' Kalau saya pakai 'I' saja - Nadia. hehe :D Kelurusan je tu...

This monday I will not be working cos I choose to attend training di empire. Baik jua cuti approved by boss! padahal last minute tu. Anyway Free kali bukannya bebayar sapa na mau pergi, tapi makanan jgn hairan bayar sendiri $55 bh! alahai~ Nda apalah sudah register jua... But I hope it's going to be fun, I'll be meeting all the CV graduates in Brunei including myself lah tu...nda sangka graduate jua ku dari CV. Dulu punyalah pyh2 kn register Core Value Training dari my company... Alhamdulillah lah. Lagipun this training is about leadership training. Nda rugi lah... ^.^ InsyAllah mudah2an beguna.

What else? Oh.. hari ani Shimah datang kerumah. Membagi apanah? Terkejut lah ku tiba2 ia dtg. Katanya ia membagi jemputan... sblm sempat ia bagi tau yang ia kan kawin, I was the first one teasing. Siapa kawin? kau? hehe katanya 'au aku kawin' haha punyalah saya terkejut mendengar. belumpatan wah ku sma simah. Nda percaya lah si kecik molek atu kn kawin yatah membagi tekajut... Kalau mendengar rakan sebaya kawin, mcm nda percaya rasanya...bnrkh aku dh dewasa? Atau aku berada di alam khayalan? huhu ahh~ sudahlah... my turn lama lagi tu... menunggu yang sudi saja lagi. :s

Talking about yesterday's smpai ari nie aku nada mood kn makan sbnrnya. ani pun bekurung dlm bilik dari pagi smpai mlm. Kalau dah susah hati ceman kn makan. Badan ku plg yang makan hati. Kmarin kan jumpa doctor pasal vomit saja nda pandai beranti. Its a normal thing if Im in sad i will vomit. Tapi takut jua jumpa duktur takut ia 'lain' paham.. krg ucapnya aku berisi plg, mcm lah aku dh kawin. apela~ Ampit ku tu sekali di hospital rimba, ia bagi aku cek urine. haissyy~ ada2 saja! Urang gastrict ia fikir atu plg.. Kmarin atu tutup tia jua clinic ari jumat ptg. Lain yang dihajat lain plg yg dibali. Membali printer jua ku tu kemarin ah pasal ms mahirah called. isyh!

At least Im done!~ aha... Aku rindu diriku yang dulu ceria lah... hmm kalau dulu assignment status pun buat disini.. hehe *Blushing* anyway I just can't wait for end of december... Lalala~ InsyAllah mudahan nada papa halangan... amiinn :) hush hush!~ hehe :o)

Love and Hugs,

Today is so different...

Assalamualaikum...

Ya Allah kenapa hari ini hariku sungguh suram... Kembalikan lah kebahagiaan itu padaku... Im sorry, Im sorry, and Im sorry.... What a big mistake did I made? Is it so big that I get all this? Please help me, my heart cried out loud... please... :'( :'( :'( its only adding her up can make this huge sorrow in my heart... It's ok. Apa ada pada diriku...? aku manusia kerdil sekerdil semut... namun begitu aku juga punya hati dan perasaan... besarkah salahku? Kalau ini jalan yang diberi, aku pasrah...tapi berikanlah keadilanmu duhai kasih... :'(

Ya Allah...

Alhamdulillah...

Salam... Hari nie Alhamdulillah, Ada kegembiraan terukir diwajahku. Senyuman yang ku berikan memberikan keceriaan kepada orang lain namun bagiku ianya suatu sukar digambarkan. Today our ibadah korban went so well. And I received a lots of daging korban. Nda rugi jadi committee ibadah korban tahun nie. Alhamdulillah.. Wlaupun di satu sisi ada saja yang nda kena tapi di sisi lain ada saja yang membuatku ceria.

Perkara yang membuatku ceria hari ini adalah kegembiraan bunda ku yang mana one of my collegue yang pernah beraya kerumah pernah memberitahu my mum bahawa anak kita tu baik ulahnya...etc etc... WHich is a good remarks for her, I believe. In a sense, I make my mum happy and proud again. Kadang2 ada gunanya bersabar daripada menjadi seorang yang rakus. It brings good name to our parents.

Another thing is my boss was sooo happy to received my present. She had spent a lot for me. I just dont know how to repay it. She once said to me that she is willing to pay my school fees for as long as im still schooling. That is so kind of her. I said to her that I am able to pay in my own expense...I dont want to bother hers. When I lost my hp, she also kindly give me cheque to repay the lost, eventho it was my fault to lose it and not taking care of it well. I owe her so much. She even lend me her management books, give me time to teach me accounting etc. Today by just by giving her the things that she likes has made her day!~ Alhamdulillah... Im so glad she like it... :')

Yesterday, I went to Gadong and kiulap to look for my boss's present. I went with Hamizah, My close buddy soul. hehe :D We went shopping and at the same time listen to each other's story. By just sharing stories and motivate each others problems...she was so happy! ANd indeed she is very happy now... so lucky her to have a normal happy life now... Sometime I envy her much~ unlike myself, I make others happy but who knows my heart was shattered. Thinking of it, Idk how should I dealt with it. I just wish he understand my heart. I just want to talk..nothing much..but its not at a right time I guess. So, I have to be patient again... nadiah oh nadiah...apakah kesudahan kisah cintamu wahai puteri? :|

With love,

Pengorbanan...

Assalamualaikum...

Selamat menyambut Hari Raya Aidiladha buat semua umat Islam diseluruh dunia... Hari Raya in Brunei falls on wednesday. and Im glad its on wednesday. As it is separated by two working days andafter another two working days it will be off days! hehe ^^

Just to share what happened at 2.40am last nite. I was really upset when I woke up I suddenly miss someone. And I dont know how to describe the feelings. It was so terrible that the tear falls. I really miss the moment together. I missed you fetch me at RM at the late nite, I missed to hangout with you at Bandar, I missed you call me until the dawn, chatting everyday after sahur, I missed us together beraya late nite at Kg. ayer after the rain stops, I missed to be with you in every second of my life. :'| All......it flashes back when I woke up in the middle of the nite. Within a short period of time Im so close with you... and more tears fall apart when reflecting back what happened in the past.

But all I can say...

Ya Allah, I miss him so much... Im sory for loving him...

and after a moment I suddenly i fall back to sleep with the tears accompanied...

Do you know how harsh love is? They give us happiness but at the same time they give us tears... But though the nature of love seems to be like that, people keep on looking for love as love cannot be separated between two human beings. Love always there no matter what.

All I can do now is berkorban... berkorban hati dan perasaan. I just want to show to the one I love that I am not an ego person. I sacrifice my all...time, heart, money, happiness for love. Though, it be worth it or not. At least I try... You have once asked me before, if you are willing to wait for me. And at that time I didn't answer quite well. Im still in doubtful. But now, I think you knew what my answer is...I'm ready for it. But somehow, I feel that you have change a bit, or probably you don't remember your saying before...

hmm anyway, Lets pray that we can settle this problem out the soonest the better, but not too rush. I will keep on praying and praying for good things!. InsyAllah... there will be a good return for me, just don't expect too much. I will just go with the flow... :')

Lotsa LOVE,

It's about L.O.V.E...

Life… life… and life… I always question to myself. Why life treats me unfairly? Why and why? This is about love. To whom it may concern, why love always treats me unfairly? Why? And why? I give my all. I sacrifice my time, I sacrifice my heart, I sacrifice my money and I sacrifice all my happiness for the one I love. But still, love never appreciates what I have done. Sometime I feel not valuable and incomplete. I often envy with couple that are having a happy time together. I envy so much… And just wondering when will I have this value of completeness… It’s not fair for me. What did I do wrong? I try to be the best in myself but what I have in return…? Hopeless and disappointment. But why? If you can see.. Why would I be waiting for someone that I love? And why from the beginning you are hoping for me to wait for you. I did all this because of love. But when the times come, and I am so glad that I am able to wait. And you said “pergilah…” I know recently I break your heart with my own weakness. But Im sorry, I am not a perfect human being. But I do willing to learn from my own flaws. To improve my weakness. I am just so sensitive with the words “pergilah…”

All I can say…Apology for the weaknesses I have. But please look at a fair side? From the beginning you like me. And I like you. We own each other’s heart and Im sory that I fall in love with you without knowing your status. Im sory for the trouble I have made… And until now… my feeling for you never fade. Please make me understand and give me clarity of our relationship. All I need is honesty, trust and love. Cos I don’t want to be in transparent.

May Allah open our heart for the good thing. Amin InsyAllah~

Master of the ceremony...

Assalamualaikum wahai dunia yang kucintai~

Before proceeding with doing my assignment amendment, I feel like writing today cos I have been keeping everything inside. I just need a few minutes to journal down what happened to my heart and my life recently.

Before you read, I am writing my life story achievement doesn’t mean I am too proud of myself or even arrogant. I write because I just want to share a lil bit and pieces of my happiness that I have gained from these few days. Last Friday, I have been selected as emcee again for the building handover ceremony from the contractor to my company. At first it was hard for me to be an emcee again. But Shahruz couldn’t make it because of the auditor requirements makes his boss not letting him go. So, in the end, I turn to be the emcee “again”. And it is “again” in English. I have done emcee-ing in English before in the past in a big events and even doing a speech several times infront of the public. And yet the nervous is still there, everytime and everywhere. But I take it positively.

Left: Gmbar lama masa emcee-ing d Sheraton

The night before the event, I drafted my script with troublesome. Will my script be accepted? I keep on thinking. Cos my English is only a very simple English. But somehow, I gain confident when remembering that I be an emcee for a big event infront of hundreds of people, and of course infront of my mum. That was the very big achievement of mine that I hardly forget. :’) I still remember the moment where my GP teacher in MD hugs me so tightly that I barely breath. Why? Cus she was so proud of me that Nadia have change a lot since MD. I used to be a very quite and very shy girl before. But I am good at doing paperwork though. Any presentations or paperwork, just come to me. People will satisfied with it. But for presenting, I give it away to others. Hehe :p My teacher cried and hugs me tightly that I’m astonished my her action. SO unbelievable… This is all because of toastmaster. Without it, I definitely will still be a quite and shy girl. :’) oh my, remembering my school days makes me want to cry… I have so many sad story during my high school till MD.

From the time where I walked from school to Dewan bahasa, with the sun shining so brightly and it was so hot! and went home by purple bus everyday. Until MD moment where mum was hospitalized for a month due to internal bleeding on her womb or people often call it hemorrhage. At that time, I was in lower six…where I have to go back home, cook some food and keep my brother safe at home and go back to hospital to visit and taking care of my mother. Everyday I was like go back and forth to hospital and home and to school. So lucky that I was able to drive cos I just have my licence at that time back in 2006. Wow…a sad story mine that I couldn’t forget til now… So this is the dream… Everyone have their intention to be success! And one of my dreams was to be good in my communication skills. All the thing that happened since last year bring me tears and joys at the same time.

What makes me tell you this story was, when my colleagues give me a “thumbs up” for my attempt in making the event a success. And some of them said “Macam di airport ko becakap ah” lol it makes me laugh with tears. Hehe :D My boss smile from the far and hugs me when she come infront of me. “Good Job Nadia!” The feeling of joy comes more and more… Thanks to all.

I share this glimpse of happiness on purpose, to motivate myself even more and to make people aware that they should appreciate their life even it was a simple matter that you have done or made so that you will appreciate the people around you especially to your own self. The greatest thing in life is to be thankful to yourself and gratitude on every moment that you have. As that moment may only comes once in a lifetime. So appreciate it.

WIth Love,

Sometimes Life Hurt Just To Make Us Smile...

"I am just a girl, standing infront of a boy,

Asking him to love her forever..."

Notting Hill

"...Well that's what love is like. everything inside of you tells you to stop before you fall, but you just keep going..."

Practical Magic

Im sorry if it's me... :')

Love,

Words of Wisdom...

If he misses you, he’ll call just to hear your voice. If he wants you, he’ll say it. And if he cares, he’ll show it. If he has a thought about you, it will come out of his mouth. If you are on his mind non-stop, he will do anything he can just to see you. If he truly likes you, he won’t let anything get in the way and fight back just to keep you in his arms. If not, he can’t be worth your time because you’re obviously not worth his.

I really want you to be here. I want your arms around me. I want to lace my fingers with yours. I want to brush your hair away from your face when it falls. I want to touch your cheek and feel your lips against mine. I’d really just love to be beside you. I wish you were here.

When you’re in love, you don’t aim for perfect. You don’t aim for the most good-looking, smartest person in the world. You aim for the person who can make you smile without trying. You aim for the person who makes you laugh and who makes you feel good about yourself. You don’t need to find a prince to find someone who’s charming.

Some time words of wisdom can tell everything that you are thinking and feel...

Lotsa LOVE,

When there is a sense of belonging.

Assalam. Aloha Everyone.

Wuu~ Its been a while since the last updates! Well, nothing to relates to the titles of this post with what Im going to say now. ahaks! Just getting some attention to the viewers. I must say thank you for the viewers outhere who is still willing to open this abandoned blog. hehe ^^

Anyhoos, there are tonnes that have been happening since the last post til now. Its just my times now is too tight to update things that happening around. Hmm.. as for now, I am too busy with assignments and test is just around the corner. And now, Im awake in the middle of the night, just finished my marketing coursework assignment. Well, its not fully done, there is a need to adjust a lil bit here and there. Overall, all the assignment can be considered DONE! haha :D In addition to that as well, I have just finished preparing what to read for my test this week. Another one, Management notes to be prepared for my test. After this im done. hm....so tired.. but luckily, this weekend my leave started for rasamas. Will not be working till end of december. and resume back to work on the 1st week of January.

I just can't wait for this to finish! and for sure im so much looking ahead on this coming december. So many things to do. And its a holy-holy-day!! Just keep on wondering, will i be able to get back to Indonesia this coming semester break?? I wish to go back to meet my grandpa and grandma back in Indonesia. Well, we have plan for it. It's just a matter of time and kachhiingg!! But if everything is going with the plan, we decided to go back a week in indonesia and 3 days in KK at my mum's adopted sister there. And continue to chill with my friends in Miri soon when Im back from KK. Ouhh, how i wish everything just moving with the plans.

Starting this december, on the 4th and 5th RBTS will be holding a family day event of Summer Camp at Pantai Berakas...But Im not sure its confirmed or not. I would like to go. But my EXAM will be around the corner at that date. hmm... I hope its not affected.

Wow! December I just can't wait to be with you!! hehe ^^, and for sure I just can't wait to have a holiday with P.A. If only we were married and go for a honeymoon.. haha :p nahh~ its a dream yet to come true! hehe :D

Orite guys! a lil updates here and there. Till we meet again in the next post!

Wish me all the best of luck for my upcoming test!!~ Love you guys! :)

Love

A day when result was out...

.....and it's finally out. I've managed to get 1B and 2 Fail. it is when we should expect the unexpected. And the time when P.A texted me that the result was out. My hand was shaking...and I just went on to my deskstop and without wasting my time I open my IVC and check my result. AND it turns out to be unexpected result. I was really hoping for my PQM to b at least C my POA to be F. But my POA turns out to be a hope that I used to have during my economics time where i hope for little luck in this subject and it was turn out to be out of the blue.. Anyhoos, tho I am a bit sad for the 2 subjects, I am happy for some reason. At least Ive got a 'B' for accounting.

More or less, morale of the story... Do not over expect a particular thing but do not least expect either. As you will in the end realised that if you put too much expectation on a particular matter in the end you suffer a loss! Cus I still remember when I am too much concentrated on my PoA even more than a week before the finals exam. Everyday accounting. At work I will ask Anoy my ex colleague about accounting and even at college I ask Alif for accounting. Not even that, I've attended extra-class with my lecturer just for the sake of PoA... i put too much effort in it! sigh oh well... what matters now I should balance it... its a lesson learnt. =)

And I would also like to congratulate to my lovely sweet duckling :) Congratulation on your outsatanding result. I pray for your success and may happiness shower your life more and more. Well, deep in my heart I wanted to beat and smack you down... But I am not sure if I ever could smack you cus I dont have the strength and I just cant do it cus I love you..hehe And well you are strong anyway. haha I know I am talking nonsense! But still it was balance! We still got 3 B's on the same subject... haha *rasa2han inda mau alah* hehe

Wow, life... life... life... I wish to have a healthy and wonderful life... I want to feel like this forever... I thank you all once again for the support given! I love you all deep from my heart and thanks for being part of my lovely beautiful life.

Today, tho I am a bit disappointed and down but people come and go to my office brings and left me with lots of laughter and smile... I laugh out loud with them today. simply loving my every moments... All in all, I am now getting my motivation back to do my assignments and school works done.. I believe that one happiness day of graduation will come to me.

I have sent my letter of advance leave to rasamas to apply for leave for the month of November and December. Alhamdulillah...I know now I have the chance to concentrate on doing my assignments.. ^^,

Orite guys.. a lil update from me. Till then...

ILY & IMY teddy's duckling! =')

Yours truly,

due date..

Wow!! Due date for 1st DRAFT Assignment is in 2 weeks time...And its gona be another 6000 words. A gentle reminder for P.A and A.P. due date is coming so soon... we have to do it!~~ Chaiyo-Chaiyo!! No wasting time.. ^_^

Love,

fond memories...

We were walking, shivering in the cold wind. Yet your company was warm. Every words exchanged with you, keeps a fire burning inside of me. You fuel me.

We walked. Side by side.Occasionally we bumped into each other out of playfulness. It was nice. I’m truly myself when I’m around you.

It was very cold, who knew the wind would blow so hard that night.

And then, our hands met.

I took hold of your hand. They were small, nevertheless, warm.

Our fingers interlock. That bind, so strong. I don’t ever want to let your hand go. You squeezed lightly. I squeezed back. Suddenly, the cold weather isn't so cold anymore.

Hand in hand we walked around aimlessly. But with your hand in mine, we’re not lost. We had nowhere to got, yet, we are going somewhere. On an adventure? Perhaps. Every moment with you feels like an adventure.

Your hand in mine. My hand……..in yours. We looked into each other’s eyes. And smiled.

My hands, forever yours.

Langit tak selalunya cerah...

Begitulah lumrah hidup... Kadang kita di atas dan kadang pula kita berada dibawah... Tiga tahun yang lalu, hidupku sama seperti ini... ditinggal pergi begitu saja, tahun seterusnya seperti itu juga. Setelah itu, jika difikirkan tentang keadaan yang pernah menimpa diri ini. Tiada cinta dan harapan yang bisa membuatkan ku jatuh lagi...namun begitu, tidak disangka cinta itu hadir sekali lagi. Hadir untuk merobek hati ku sekali lagi. Mengikut kata hatiku yg kejam...memang semua lelaki sama. Suka mempermainkan perasaan wanita. Sudah menjadi lumrah alam, begitu kejadiaannya. Namun jauh disudut hati dan perasaanku aku mengasihani mereka ini. Adakah kerana kasihan itu membuat hidup ku sendiri tak tentu arah?

Ceritera ku ini adalah umpama novel kisah cinta yang sukar dimengerti. Boleh dikata seperti mengapai bintang dilangit. Kita menyintainya dan mengaharapnya sepenuh hati, kita sangat tertarik dengan keindahanya, namun begitu, sayangnya kita hanya tergapai-gapai ingin memeggang bintang itu. Kita mengharapnya berada disisi namun itu semua hanya mimpi indah yang tak bisa menjadi kenyataan...

Hati pernah berkata aku tak mau bercinta lagi...aku mau teruskan perjuanganku. Kejayaan sepenuhnya belum ku kecapi. Aku berharap suatu hari nanti pasti ada lagi yang terbaik...

September come and go...

Assalamualaikum Cik Abang and Cik Adik Sekalian...

CCCT Hari Raya Celebrations

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Happy 22nd Birthday to the Owner of this blog,

Adriana Puteri Nadia

14th Septmeber 2010

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RBTS HARI RAYA OPEN CAREER DAY

Level 6, RBTS HQ

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HRCS & MIS Open Department

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Executive Office & Finance Open Department

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Acquisition Management Open Department

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PPM & VMC Open Department

Kg. Salar

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RBTS Functions atHoliday Lodge Hotel, Jerudong

Majlis Khatam Al-Quraan

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Penyampaian Derma Anak-anak Yatim

Yours Truly,

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri...

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh~

I Know I have been missing since Raya came. As alif have said Im doing things hangat-hangat t*** ayam.. huhu :) I know right..? It's just that my time is currently very limited not as before. There is few things I committed to right now so, Im sory blog I have been abandoning you. But no worries. Will keep myself updated from time to time. Please dont laugh when I said I have prepared long list what I will do in my blog... Its all abt happiness that Ive gone through in just a short while.. Just need patience and patient.. lol :p anyhoos... just wait probbably by tomorrow i will updates...

anyway... Selamat Hari Raya guys... I love you. xoxo

When August End...

Assalam. I am happy but sad...Happy to see myself moving forward. But sad to leave all the beautiful memory passed by since January 2010...

There's a saying...

Life must be understood backwards; but... it must be lived forward.- Soren Kierkegaard

Wow, when i try to reflect and reminisce back. What a wonderful life I have had. I just don't realised it. Someone makes me think back my life I have. I know, this person is a hidayah from Allah that I should be very thankful of what have been given to me. Although I have gone through lots of the dark side, I felt I am so lucky to have that. Without it, without those challenges, I wouldn't be ME now. I will not be the way I am right now. There's so many blessing I have. Alhamdulillah... I hope this will leads my way up and always stays along the line. But if there's a distratctions along my ways, i guess I am ready to face it. This is all because experience in life has taught me to be mature, patient, calm in facing those challenges.

As of today, I am still alive, I still keep on breathing... Cus I know 'life' want the best in me. And I should appreciate every moment I have cus we are not living this life forever. Allah have created us to be the best human being. And that best human evolve and emerged from the way you wanted it to be. You created your life. So, make it wonderful. If you less motivated, find someone that can motivate you towards the best in you. Allah wants us to keep on trying.. never give up.

Do you know that...

“All of the top achievers are life-long learners... Looking for new skills, insights, and ideas. If they're not learning, they're not growing... not moving toward excellence.”

Being an 'excellence' is not only for our study or work but life. Achieving the best in life is what we want. Being the Best is BEST!~ hehe :D

All in all, whenever you demotivated just count your blessing. That should be fine.

Ok, this video really inspired me to keep moving forward, because I used to be in the son's position. I keep on blamming my father who made me appear in this earth and makes me suffer since I was a kid. I used to hate LIFE very much, cus life always treated me unfairly and makes my mom suffered. But this vid really rings the bell. I hope you do inspired as well... Always keep track of yourself, do not change from the line and keep believing yourself.

"The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place... and I don´t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently, if you let it. You, me or nobody, is gonna hit as hard as life. But ain't about how hard you hit... It's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward... how much you can take, and keep moving forward. That´s how winning is done. Now, if you know what you worth, go out and get what you worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits. And not pointing fingers saying: You ain´t what you wanna be because of him or her or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain´t you! You´re better than that!"

Wow, it's really are an inspiring video.... :)

I hope when SEPTEMBER comes, happiness will be showering me all the way... If I were to think of a fairy tale... I would like to dance my life out~ singing and living peacefully... Haha. I know its nonsense but just to maintain the feeling of joy in my heart. ;)

I really wana thank you all who have been part of my life and also consider you, strangers who read my blog. Because everything happens for a reason. This is the reason...I may be inspiring you and I am also inspired by you...

Talking about life, today my days started with a car almost hit my car at the main round-about gadong. But I did not lose my temper, I just smile. hehe WHy? Because its not my fault, he even horn me. And I just keep moving. He was the one who overtake my lane. Not Im taking him. So what for Im angry..?? haha in the end I hope he realised that he was the one who's wrong. Shame on you...

When I reached office, My day started with a smile to the reception as well as Mawee who's waiting for me to open the office door. hehe :D And they even realised that I'm smiling all the way.. "Ayu nampak hari nie" Umi said.. :) hehe I just smile and thanks her. I can just simply said to myself.. well, first thing is I am busy but stress free. :D

Today as well, I met my colleague whom I say is "Simple but Complicated" She was really happy to see me, I just dont know why...I feel the joy when I met her. I just listen to her story cus she just wen back from a shopping trip to KL few days back to accompany her twins for her wedding this december. Obviously, I have to shift my thought from -ve to +ve in order to accept people's weaknesses. They are my sisters and brothers in Islam..why should I hate 'em for those remeh-temeh reasons rite? hehe

One thing that makes me smile is when Lim aka Mr Kungfu Panda wanted to give me a CD of Bryan Adam, oh it's just happened when Donald, our cleaner clearing the dustbin and suddenly his hp rang. And the ringtone was Bryan Adam's song. I really bet, Lim will give me the CD tomorrow. Because he said so. lol.

"hey, that is Bryan Adam's Song... Donald can you sing Nadia that song?" He asked donald.
Donald just smile, laugh and left.
And when Hj mohammad came by to my office, Lim also asks him to sang...but Hj Mohammad just laugh and maybe thinking "what for?"
In the end, I speak up..."Haiyya you a..lim, you sja sing that song...simple what?"
And that makes him downloaded the song directly and he told me that he want to give me the song.. sigh. Reuben who was also there just laugh.. Kungfu Panda always done the unexpected things. isk..isk..

I really don't understand him, and I dont wana understand it anyway.. huhu :s last time mcD and now Bryan Adam? lol :p

Btw I received an invitation today from Amri for his wedding this 10th October. Ali gave me the invitation this morning.. I dont expect I will be invited. cus I only knew him for only few months in RBTS before he further study if not mistaken. Thanks for the invitation anyway... :) InsyAllah will come...

Alright, I guess that's all I wana say... See you September... :)

May the joy be with you guys as well...xoxo